The text you never sent,
Have you ever wanted to text someone saying “I miss you”, then erased it & wrote “what’s up” instead? Or have you ever written a long paragraph in a text and you wrote down how you felt, & wanted to send it to someone special, but maybe you were afraid you weren’t gonna get a reply cause you made it awkward, so you just drafted it or erased the whole thing & didn’t bother texting them at all?
Let’s switch roles this time.
This time, I’ll be the one to hurt you, make sure I lose connections with you and have you cry at night. I won’t be the one in pain, i won’t be the one losing sleep, and ultimately, I won’t be the one to get hurt anymore. Let’s see how much of this you can take because when you did it to me, I took so much of it. You don’t realize how much it hurts till you experience it.
309.) I’m scared that I’m not the only one you’re acting sweet to.
I think so low of myself.
I can’t help it. I don’t think I’m cute, good looking or attractive. I think my personality is shit. And I think anybody can do better than me. especially in a relationship. I feel like there is always someone better, someone that can make them happier than me. I just think so low of myself…
today.
Reminiscing.
Don’t you have those moments when you look back to all the fun times you had and automatically a smile lights up on your face wishing you can do it all over again? I’m so glad I met everyone I’m good with right now and I thank them for those good fun times, even for the worst times.
